pondering..
i been thinking too much. being alone with nth to do can be horrible.. unpleasant thoughts and imaginations just go flashing past the mind.. i don't want this. gonna stop thinking..
words left unspoken, regrets tooo late..
accept the fact, move on.
a simple gesture, action or behaviour speaks a thousand words. .
u poor sorry soul. .
lost . . . and not found
how does it feel to be robbed of $600? -___-"
unretrievable time. . .
went to dbl O again last nites. one of my guys bday party. so i went down to 'show face' wahaha.. alrights lah. was kinda fun too. positives with negatives. dbl O has been different lately. now there appears to be more girls there than b4. but in truth, i don't really care bout them.. im no clubber and im nt interested.. once again, i held back my drinking.. and no longer am i suffering frm the unbearable itch. nevertheless, its good to c my guys happy. have fun guys!~
went home late and slept late. but i woke up at 930. slept less than 6 hours.. recently playing a new game on my psp. haha. and i had so many more unwatched movies to go.. however.... im apparently too tired to do anything. i ttotally knock out for the whole afternoon until now.. at times my mum woke me up but i found no str in me to get out of bed.. so i knocked out again.. ZzzZzzzzzZz.. and who's to make up for my time loss.. so many things to do and so little time. seems like im not good and 'managing myself' much less to consider 'manage time'
not gonna brood over all that. its man utd vs everton laterz. today's a good day.. and i hope its gonna get bettttterrr. wahah. cos its a long weekend coming up u'know. =)
time?
what do u mean by no time? fk u understand? yesterday and today no time? u come here and tell me u fking no time? u not interested isit? if u fking not interested then u blardy get out of this place!- those were the times during training where 'no time' is a taboo word and can nvr be used as an excuse. I was an the receiving end of it when i produced a sub-standard piece of work. that's besides the main point. there is 24hrs in a day and only so much u can do. THUS, instead of trying to "manage your time" to complete the $$%^& number of tasks. why not "manage your tasks" and complete them in a given set of time. As mentioned, there is only that much of things we can do. We shld manage our tasks, prioritise the more impt work and complete them within a certain time scale. The less impt work could either be thrown out of the window or jus micro manage them.
Instead of trying to complete all ur assignments and producing half fk results, we might as well pick out the most important assignment, focus our energy on it and produce a good work.
I believe bosses won't screw ppl for a slightly late but good assignment but they certainly would screw u for producing a fked up one.
The language is misleading: when someone has "no time", the disorder is not in his/her time but in his/her tasks. There are too many things: things that are too unimportant and too big that a person packs into that 24hrs. Simplification does not mean "saving time" but rather saving tasks". It's not a question of managing time. It's more about mangaing yourself.
fulfilling at the moment.
all of a sudden, i got more and more guys under my wings. now i've got a entire platoon size of them. haha~ and some of them really naughty. whatever lahs. got to experienced something again. once again, i find myself a fantastic counsellor. Lol~ jus joking. on a side note, i seriously think im influencing the behaviour and discipline of my guys. everything jus goes around and comes around.
actually, im starting to love this camp more than b4. =x though there's some bad eggs here and there. at least there's beautiful girls in this camp. wahaha. i'd had to admit she looks good. but she's like 7 yrs older than me. Lol~
it jus feels like any normal working environment.. howevere i believe the office politics out there is gonna be way more powderful than it is right here.
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im getting plagued by the sleep bug nowadays. im falling asleep on trains far more often. i cant even read a book with my eyes open. i need to start reading on the BTT notes. hope to pass it on the 1st attempt tho. my forecast of events for Nov is gonna be crazy. but dec's gonna be a lovely month.. now i wonder...
Wish List
1. my own personal bedroom
2. LCD TV
3. Hi-Fi Blast Audio system
4. Creative Zen X-Fi Mp3
5. Apple Macbook
6. A car and driver's license
7. Nike running shoes
8. Sony Playstation 3
9. Hubstation
10. 14/06/2009
there are probably more. so let me think 1st =)
money is
almost everything
a night of fun and laughter..
last night was the start of the weekend. whee~ and we went to aston's for dinner. as usual, the queue will long but the food was still good nonetheless. this time round, we met up with some friends we haven seen for awhile. wei hong and joseph. they haven really changed much. jus as we chat and chat on old times. i suddenly realised that we were all from the same pri school. wei hong actually sat beside me for 2 yrs in pri school. hahaha! i've got superb memory alrights. =)
the same old topics bout the army and the thing's we've learned from the army. added with a tinge of hyper duper lameness. we're really tri service. army, airforce, navy. waha~ i don remember another table in the entire restaurant that was louder than us. =/ in fact, at one point i laughed so hard that my stomach cramped and tears start rolling down my eyes..
it really was a enjoyable start to my weekend. love it totally. =D
And today, i finally got my lazy bum working, went down to CDC and reg for BTT. the test date's on 28th Nov. just one month later! the only dark side is that i waited 1hr due to the freaking long queue. the days ahead are brighter. and the most hectic week thus far was over. relief and smiles all over =)
hectic.
im feeling so lethargic. after being away from home for 2 days. but its quite alrights. its really kinda peaceful in camp at times. provided nothing happens. haha!
its been far too packed these few days. far too hectic. now i could almost fall asleep on a chair.. right in front of the stupid pc. haha~ im supposed to be taking off for a dental appointment tml. but now it seems that i won't be able to. there's too many outstanding work that i have to go back camp and clear them. and some of them are quite urgent issues as well. ain't that just pathetic. partly i also dont feel like going for that dental. its too far from home and too inconvenient. hahaa!
that's just my life now. crazy ain't it. NSF so siao on de. very rare rite? but actually not true lah. there are actually some NSFs who will OT to complete their work de. and me? i everyday 1730 wait for bus =)
i very the happy loh. there's this gal in my camp loh. she's like so cute de loh. but she wears this nerd glasses that makes her look diff. but when in cv, its like totally makeover loh. WAh~ =X and the other day she called me loh. everyday got gal c. not bad right. heee
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the rest is for ur imagination =)
a clueless kid once, then
Seeing them play just reminds me of old times.
isn't childhood just so beautiful. i miss those times.
just appreciate life now.
It was nice seeing everyone again after some long time. Although not very close and also don't really talk much. Still, i can see that everyone was glad to see everyone around. reminiscing the old times. =] seems like there's more parties going on until the end of the year. anticipating them. haha [=
It sure feels good to be loved by everyone isn't it. Whether friends, families or even your guys. In camp, im like the father figure to all of them. i'm slowly drifting away from them as well. Someone told me this. "bo bians, officer is lonely de." To me, that was neither true nor false. i mean as an officer, there is obviously a line drawn across. It wouldn't be nice to step over that boundary. I can also feel that there are things that the guys just cant share with me. There's just this barrier between us that made us can't be friends. Even when out of camp, they still called me 'Sir' Though some of them would call me by name and i totally have no issues with that.
the guys are great, they make the entire puzzle fall in place and they don't give me problems as well. Though i've been hard on them at times. It's for the good of them all. Their hard work were very much appreciated and i hope i am as well. What's more, its just nice to know that some of them actually changed for the better becoz of myself. It's a great feeling to know that I had such an impact on someone else's life. At the end of the day. i just want everyone to be happy. Life's short. Life in the army is shorter. There's no where else that's alike.
eventful day
Today's the 10th Oct. Which is also the SAF's payday. Haha. We had our cohesion today. went to chevrons for bowling and followed by ktv and zes disco. would be lying if i say it wasn't fun. wahaha. enjoyed plenty of other fun games as well. sang like crazy, was really awesome. i controlled my drinking. no more itch le of coz.. haha~ what's more, i din knew some of my guys can sing that well. was totally impressed!
went to shop abit for clothes and stuffs after dinner. and now im back home thinking what might have been.
next week's gonna be hyper hectic. in fact. this month is gonna be so packed. i really just need a breather. furthermore, there's so many things left undone. omggg.....
Ex.
i want go overseas for Ex.
Should just attach me out for the nxt 8 mths~
Fk it~
to be the bad guy instead?
dead tired. coz i've done so much work today.
"don't keep taking the shit that comes, coz eventually more shit will come to you."
Basically it means the more junior you are, the more likely u r gonna get totally bullied if u wanna be the good guy.
they'll push work and sai kang to u and saying 'no' is not always the solution.
i nneed to learn how to say 'yes' but mean 'no'.
fulfilling and unhealthy lifestyle
i had a wonderful saturday yest! haha~ tho it started with a rather dull morning doing parade and drill rehearsals. i thought it was quite fruitful especially for the regulars who have not been in touch with arms drills. It was also a great chance for all junior officers to get together and enjoy a short reminisce. haha~
i came back feeling so hungry and decided to disturb the rest and ask them out for breakfast. Lol!
end up only hao was available. never mind that.
Then, we went to sakae sushi for lunch cum dinner. haha. wonderful~ all of us was like damn full. and still laughed at some jokes that made my stomach cramp. wahaha! walked around town after that. thru esplanade and all, enjoying the breeze but missed the sunset. haha! too bad lah. none of us had a camera phone. neither did any of us brought a camera. wasted loh! all screwed!!
Truly, i've been through a really unhealthy lifestyle. i've skipped breakfast. had light lunch becoz always lacked the appetite. missed tea breaks. had late dinner. i thought i've lost weight really. now tht's really screwed. im weighing just over 62kg..
all that simply becoz i cant find the time to have proper meals.. sometimes i don even feel like having a proper one..
but lets just hope that october proves to be a brighter month for u and me.
war of words.
imagine this:
Mr A: "No no no. Listen! what i'm saying is ......"
Mr B: "No wait. I understand i understand! i know all that but u need to understand this... we cant give u everything u asked for u see...."
Mr A: "No lah. u dun understand lah. u don't UNderStand!! i think i need to invite u over and take a look at our situation."
Mr B: "No no lah. u listen to me! slowly don't need so gan jiong! wah piang!.... i understand lah. i understand where u coming from.."
Mr A : "u really understand?. u really really really understand?"
Mr B: " yea! so what u talking about ah?"
Seeing them play just reminds me of old times.