太傻
痴痴地想了多少夜
我还是不了解
是什么让我们今天会分别
反正梦都是太匆匆
反正爱只能那么浓
心与感情让它粉碎飘散在风中
只是为何当初你是
不听所有纷纷扰扰流言之中漫天风雨你会选择了我
只是为何如今我们
不顾一切追求真爱坚持底下苦尽甘来你会放弃了我
再说你也不会懂
心再痛你能做什么
不再将自己深锁错了又错
守住你的承诺
太傻只怪自己被爱迷惑
说过的话已不重要可是我从不曾忘掉
守住你的承诺
太傻只怪自己被爱迷惑
醉过的心那里去找对著满满空虚回忆怎么逃
for those dwelling within
its weekend again. was really fast. things are really going quite well these few days.. actually saw my fren yest when i went to be the ippt neutral. such coincidence that he was actually the conducting officer. talked about old days. cool and really memorable.. such events really brightened up my day.. such is the nature of men in green.. we hardly have time to catch up with people. neither do others hav time to accomodate us. those short time together, chatting bout the part of lives that has gone so wrong.. those short messages that really cheered me up from time to time.. those encouragements given to me. it really means that much. and sometimes i think i really need to grow up. im still feel like a 15 yr old kid.
Tight timeline
so many things, so little time. . . +_+
Our loved ones.
truly a tiring day. went for AHM in the morning and subsequently to the SG expo for the screening of money no enough 2. After the show, director Jack Neo and his cast of actors/actresses came and greeted the crowd.
For the 1st time in a long time, the movie moved me to tears. It was a sudden surge of emotions and as ever, shows our negligence to the ones who are really important to us.
Many of us never really realised how important the people ard us are until we lose a part of it. And because of the sole reason that they have always been there for us, we neglected it and took them for granted. i've suddenly thought how lucky i truly am.
My Life
Just a blink of an eye, 21 years flashed past. No longer the boy who would run out of a kindergarten class for mommy. No longer the young pri school boy who would cry in the first day of school, wondering where momma was. There was also this little girl that i would always approach then. She was apparently the cutest girl then. as far as im concerned. 7 year old boy knows how to pao niu liao. HahA. Damn cool. That was exactly how i was like those times. I've made friends but few in between. Remember Yq, the neighbour, loud and mischievious, full of nonsense and pranks. Hao, the boy who has the exact same bag as I do. Those were like 14 years ago. Boys as we are, would almost get together everyday and play all we can. To continue anymore would be crazy. we've shared that much and i could probably come up with a novel for all that if i had been a good writer.
We remained in touch even until secondary school. Perhaps fate. However, boys as boys will never be like how girls are. We shared much, having fun, playing all we could but heart to heart, we've never really shared much. That's besides the point.
Army has came between all of us. I've found myself drifting apart from the rest. slowly but surely. But now that army life has turned out so much better for me, that fact remains. Simply because they don't enjoy that luxury i do, albeit some of them do. I've came through 12 mths of training. I couldn't really apprehend toughness or hardship. It was just numbness all along. I've seen people trying to geng. Some came up with suicidal thoughts. One even had depression out of nowhere. I still remember my days where almost every single person in my bunk were attached. Oh yea sometimes i wish there would be that special someone to carry me through all these shiets that we were practically forced to go through. So has the boy turned into a man? To me, hardly.
So what is love. i don understand and probably never will. It just flashes past and goes by like nothing ever happened. Why do people still yearn to be loved when they practically had been hurt a million times before. Just how powerful is love truly is.?
Friendship is precious, not only in the shade, but in the sunshine of life.
To have a friend is a blessing. To be a friend is a honor. Yet as friends, we are typically relegated to standby status in one another's lifes. We do our best to connect when one of us has something significant to celebrate or commiserate. Otherwise, though, we tend to squeeze each other into whatever slots are left over after the other people and responsibilities in our lives get thier share.
Amazingly, our friends understand. They patiently wait their turn and graciously accept whatever time and attention we give them. They're always there when we need them, and they forgive us when we're slow to recognize thier needs. Such is the nature of friendship --- true friendship
Apologize
I'm holding on your rope,
Got me ten feet off the ground
I'm hearin what you say but I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down, but wait
You tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around, and say that...
It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
I'd take another chance, take a fall
Take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
But it's nothing new
I loved you with a fire red-
Now it's turning blue, and you say...
"Sorry" like the angel heaven let me think was you
But I'm afraid...
It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
It's too late to apologize, yeah
I said it's too late to apologize, yeah-
I'm holdin on your rope, got me ten feet off the ground...
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Short Testimonial
OCT CHUANG HE YOU is diligent, helpful and shows initiatives in doing things. He is well disciplined and never poses problems to his instructors. He is a person who is always willing to learn and will not hesitate to clarify his doubts. He obtained a GOLD standard for IPPT.
He needs to be more vocal as he is soft spoken by nature and also to improve on his decision making skills.
How true??
midweek
its midweek le. n im still on course. so pathetic and bored.. doesn't help that lessons go from morning to nite. every single day.. falling asleep is usual.. at least still can sms abit to keep myself occupied. talking bout that.. this unlimited sms shit has me taking things for granted once again.. it hasn't been all that special anymore and there's no joy in it as well.. not lest when ur ignored.. i couldn't care less now.
jus on course for some time. but people back camp are bothering me with unnecessary calls and all that shit things.. this is a break that doesn't really seem like one.. so many things requiring attention, yet im not ard to do it. people got prob find u, ok help them. but then u got bitten back. cant be a nice guy really. a nice guy is really the stupidest person..
well.. its nt good feeling lousy. much worse trying to vent ur frustrations on other people.. till now. i still feel bad to those to bore the full brunt of my force.. or so to say. quite horrific..
waiting for weekend..
a brand new week/new day
today woke up damn early again. slept only 4hr. tmd. and to think man utd failed to win last nite -__- .. never mind that.. today's lesson really long and draggy. instructor full of bullshits.. that made everyone laugh a little tho. at least can keep awake.. hahaha.. den waited damn long for nth until ard 1830. bloody hell.. the nxt cool thing is panda aka big sis was actually one train ahead of me. lol. small world but nt so small after all huh.. well eventually saw her and yunru and tamp. well whatever. its yunru's bday tho. cool huh ^^
im still bloody itching here and there.. alamak. alcohol so destructive meh.. think twice b4 u drink manz..
and lastly im feeling rejuvenated today. hopefully that's a good sign for things to come.. =]
one night of madness. .
u know something? i haven blog for like years. somehow i feel like penning my thoughts down now.. but i dun think anyone would realise but whatever.. thought about so many things happening this few days. what could have been.. Sometimes i wonder if i should do what i wanna do becoz failure and regrets continues to haunt me to date.. at the same time, i don't wanna regret the fact that i've done nothing bout it.. it hurts really.. so i drank n drank but no answers could be found of coz.. went crazy messing ard dancing away. hahaha.. but for what?? and to think that im itching all over my body becoz of some allergy or pre-diabetes symptoms.. lol does this mean im gonna die if i continue to drink further.. but one day everyone would rite? lol. alcohol poisoning.. sounds fking deadly. whaah.. how to don't think don't care don't bother?? i wanna return to my carefree joyous life..
