Simply Charismatic

Leader?

im a commander for god damn sake.. i've my guys i need to care for. their welfare. their worries, their lifestyle and difficulties. everything. its my responsibility as their leader.

i like to see the guys enjoy their time. have fun and laughter together as a group. see them smiling and gossiping, laughing at others shortcomings. they have their low points as well. and when that happens. i found myself at a lost of wondering how to actually motivate them..

Everyday im making decisions.. i've had my fair share of good and bad ones. decisions that affect the life of another person drastically.. i've made decisions on short notice. even now, decisio making remains one of my weakest link.. still, i've to brace myself for future endeavours..

today, i've heard that my guy who i've posted out somewhere else cried becoz he felt he's alr bonded into his current environment.. it's not like i've much of a choice eventually. but sometimes hearing such things happening makes me feel devastated.. makes me wonder just what kind of a leader am i really..

it jus suddenly strikes to me so deeply that how much one's decision really could impact so many around him, whether positively/negatively. . .

posted by Cloud @ 11:05 PM